My Charade Is The Event Of The Season.

Mostly I am tired. 

At the start of the evening I was planning on blogging.

And now it is like almost nine AND I forgot what I wanted to blog about.
Did a lot today. And since it is like a gazzilion degrees outside... a little soon had gone too much.

I did make a lot of funny text Icons. For personal use onely.
Not much to say. Not in the mood.

Off to watch Inkheart. Hope I'll find it good.

Talk to you later. Off.

A Fine Mess!

A Fine Mess. That's the title of the Kate Voegele's new music album.
The album rocks my stereo this week. But that's not what this is about.

A Fine Mess will make a great title for my life right now. Because... god... IT stinks... lol
Not much to tell other than that. School still sucks... not all grades are good (read: biology and French.) and I don't like my teachers or really anyone at school except a few from my class and my best friend on school: Laura. And Sabine is fun too. Bot other than that... nada.

Outside of school I still have this ex boyfriend. Read the EX part really good.
Thank god he's not my boyfriend anymore. Last week he gave me a lecture about who he thaught I was. And about some things he was right.... but other things were just crap.
And He is on my ignore list for that one. Because.... you know... When you break up with me... you give up the right to lecture me about anything!
Made that clear to him... I hope.

And now I'm at school... Luckily my class went to Germany for the day. Some excursion... I couldn't come. Bummer. LOL. Not really, because now I have free time. No classes but still I'm here.... behind a computer.... owned by the worst school ever! lol
Going home early today. Supposedly I have to go to the dentist... not. lol

When I get home I'm going to admire the new kitchen. We're currently remodeling the house downstairs... And I hope it's gonna look awesome!
But just today the new kitchen arrived. They're gonna place it next week... But I'm curious!!
And after that I will sit behind my computer again.... probably working on my dear friend Lore's request. I hope it will be beautiful!

So that's it for now. Not much to do than surf the internet a bit. And work on my project for school.... although I don't think that I'll work much on that today... Not in the mood... hihi

Talk to you later (whomever reads this... except for my friend Lore!)

Saskia

The Minor Fall and The Major Lift...

A few weeks ago our Idols in the Netherlands was won by Lisa. 
She has this amazing voice and her first single is a cover of Hallelujah. She sings it with so much passion. Unbelievable. 

But ANYWAY.... it's been a while. 
I don't really know what to write because my life (from my point of view) pretty much sucks right now. 
It all has to do with 'the' ex boyfriend, me being pretty much friendless, not having a sociallife and of course school. 

First subject: the ex boyfriend. 
2 weeks ago he came over for a visit. And it didn't feel comfortable, it sucked!
I can't really explain it because I thought it would feel kind of good to see him again.
But it turned out that it didn't. He wrote me this long email telling me that he missed me as a person and that he missed my family as for being his family. Bla Bla. 
So he came over but I just couldn't do it. He came to close again and I don't want that anymore.

And now I'm on the MSN, talking to him. Trying to tell him that I still want to stay in contact.
And he tells me that he misses me so much and that it's only getting worse.  He also told me that he still is deeply in love with me.
BUT I just can't. And I know that I made the right decision two months ago. But still, it sucks. 

Second subject: friendless.

It's true. I'm almost eightteen years old and I have no social life other than school.
My once best friends kind of dumped me at the time of my boyfriend. But that's totally my own fault. Because I ignored her pretty much completely at that time Because I had my boyfriend.
And now she has a new friend and I'm jealous. They kind of have what we used to have. And I want it back, I miss my best friend. And although we're still friends and visit each other... it doesn't feel the same anymore. And that sucks too!

But other than her and my schoollife I pretty much have no one. 
I have this one really good friend, Michel. But he doesn't exactly live around the corner.
So seeing him every once in a while is gonna be hard.
And than there's this other person. An amazing girl. Whom I've been kind of 'stalking' lately.
Lore, you are one of my greatest friends. And I'm sorry for 'stalking' you.
I know it's not good. Because you actually do have a life, which I'm jealous of. But I just miss talking to you, miss our goofy stories. 

Third subject: school.

A few months ago I took on Math. I dropped that class a few years before, but suddenly I thought it would come in handy. So now I have Math. And it sucks. I just can't sleep about it.
And although my teacher says I'm pretty good at it, as does my tutor... I just don't know.
It's actually that I think I'll fail my exams because of math.
Secondly, Biology is going really bad. I don't know why, but the last few subjects have just gone bad. My grades have dropped to a big fat D/E! I hate that feeling. 

I just need help with everything. I'm pretty much/kind of depressed at the moment.
And I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like crap pretty much all the time.

Once again, Lore. I'm sorry. I hope you'll still talk to me.

And now I'm off the bed, listening to Broken Hearted Girl - Beyonce.

Back From Holiday In The Sun!

Went to Creta. Came back. LOL

It was very nice. The weather was nice, never had any rain. The people were nice.
Except for one person, but that doesn't really matter.

I had the 'hots' for the travel agency guy *blush*.
Went to see Knossos with the family. My mom took a lot of pictures for my paper for school.
Which I'm not looking forward to.

Then we had a Greek night at the hotel. My sister-in-law and I + dad danced the sirtaki.
And again I had the hots for a guy. He was one of the sirtaki dancers... and he actually winked at me! LOL
I can't explain, because normally I don't fall for that kind of guy... but he was cute! lol

Next we went back to Holland, a boy who sat a chair next to me in the plane kept staring at me.
It annoyed me, lol. I was like, wtf?!

In the plane I read an interview with Robert Pattinson. Found out why he's single. lol

Got back home, started my computer. Downloaded my missed series and started watching.
Just finished the first one, One Tree Hill!

Well, a lot of staring. Lots of laughter and lots of pictures (not many include me lol)
Wrote my friend Lore a postcard. I hope she gets it through mail. 

Now back to duty. Laundry!

Lore, I will beta your stories. Don't worry!