Things to look forward to in 2010:
Graduating. Getting my drivers license. Visiting Lore because of the previous. Going to New York in June. Visiting Ireland and London. Spending time with my friends. Reading. Going to a new school. Probably the IDEE thingy.
Well, the guys from the weather report were wrong. It looks like we’re having a white Christmas. AT LAST!! It’s been a long time since I’ve seen snow.
I added some pictures, one of my dog… she’s too short on her feet… but o so cute. She looks like a little bambi while in the snow.
Dear Lotje. She’s old… cranky, stinky and whiney but I love her.
Just to show you how much snow has fallen on half a day.
My Dear sister-in-law her heart is broken because my ass of a brother cheated on her! Just like his father. Ugh.
I feel for her. And… because of that selfish act of him… Christmas is ruined.
And last but not least,
And not that my friend Lore will read this… or comment. Because she has crossed over to another website… I missed you! LOL
There Will Be Less “Love Story” and More “War”
“Eclipse isn’t as intimate as Twilight or New Moon,” Robert Pattinson explains to us. “We’re at war, so I get to interact with more characters, not just Kristen. You’ll also find out more about the other members of the Cullen family. It just feels bigger.”
Hey.
It has been a while since I’ve posted something on here. Probably because I have the feeling no one is reading my stuff. So what’s the point?! Well, the point is that I feel better afterwards.
Let me tell you some things that have been going on lately in my life.
My mother started a lawsuit against my biological father and we won! He wouldn’t release the trustfund he and my mother had built over 14 years for me and my brother. But now… Suddenly I’ve got big bucks on my bank account.
My best friend Sabine and I went to see the Twilight Saga: New Moon twice. The first time we went with my sister-in-law Cathy. It was kind of like a surprise for her, and lucky for Sabine and I… she loved it!
The second time was with our gay friend Olivier. It was fun, I have never heard a boy gasp because of a boy’s body. There was a lot of laughter that day.
I like New Moon better as I did Twilight. The techniques were better. Although I did think that the wolves were a bit too graphic. The Cullens looked a whole lot better and I loved the scene where they informed us about Jasper’s power. LOVED IT!
They did leave some things out, that disappointed me. And they ruined the end. Totally different than in the book. Except for the end scene.
Other than those little things this movie was way better than Twilight, and dare I say that Jasper was, to me, the hottest guy on screen. Sabine thought of Jacob and Laurent. And my sister-in-law and my gay friend Olivier thought of Edward.
Mixed opinions! Oh Boy.
Last thursday I went with Sabine to her place, in the middle of a schoolweek and it was nothing but fun! It was an impulsive action but still. The day after, friday… we spent 5 hours in the train…. Long story… but even during the delay we had fun!
And yesterday night was terrible. My dad gave me a very expensive gift: an Ipod Touch 3rd Generation. And I thought I’d broken it.
Untill someone from OTHforums.com read my cry for help and… helped me out! Who says communities can’t help you?!
So my Ipod is fixed… although I did cry my eyeballs out before fixing it. LOL
Well, that was it for now. I hope someone reads this… maybe comments. Don’t feel obligated.
I actually wrote this for myself… It’s getting a little crowded inside my tiny head…. so I thought this might help.
Love to all,
Saskia
According to my ever so absent biological father I work full time at the local supermarket (I'm a student in High School) and I live together with my boyfriend (I don't have a boyfriend).
Don't you just love life? lol
Lucky for me I have a wonderful dad.
Back to studying for semi finals and filling my Ipod.
XX
This is my motto for today: It (=life) Goes On.
I've just emailed my mother to tell her that I've changed my mind.
First I told her that I didn't want her to put out a bid on this apartment for me... Because I didn't know what the future would bring.
I still don't know what the future will bring but I do know that I want to spend the first couple of years of living alone in my hometown. Close to home. lol
Wish me luck. I hope she says yes... although I doubt it... lol
Cheers!
Icon made by me.
I'm trying to comment on my friend's blog... but my computer won't let me.
SO: LORE. I love what you did with the cake. It looks fab! And in science doesn't work out I think you should go into the cake industry! lol
We need to talk. Please tell me where I can find this accommodation. I want to go there as well. lol
Let me know!
Still busy writing btw. lol
Well, I’ve made my decision. I’ve started to write my story about One Tree Hill. Series on CW which I follow. Since it’s become a bit boring…
I’ve decided to add a little of my own drama.
For my loyal readers (Lore) a piece. A prologue.
What if everything didn’t go as you thought it did? Would you still be happy? Would you still feel safe in your home? The home you built together with your husband. To give your son a secure life?
What if in you were fighting? What if you lost it all? Just because of that happening?
When they get home they find Peyton in the kitchen. Baking Lucas’ favorite breakfast, French toast. Peyton notices the dried tears on Haley’s cheeks. She rushes over to her and gives her a hug.
“I do hope you gave the little boy my love, dear sweet Haley.” She says.
“Peyton, I would never forget that. I’m sure he’s very happy about it.” Haley says.
While Haley freshens herself up in her bedroom, Lucas hugs his wife.
“Dear wifey. I love you but the toast is burning.” He says with a wide grin.
“O! Shoot me.” Peyton says while rushing back to the kitchen.
“Don’t rush. You’ll hurt the baby.” Lucas says.
“Stop worrying about the baby… or I will burn the toast. On purpose.” Peyton says with a smile.
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Like I said. Just a prologue. Let me know what you think. But you won’t read the story until it’s ready! lol
I just updated my MSN. And it gave me this amazing program. Windows Live Writer. It gives me the chance to write blogs whenever I want. It’s a program on your computer… and you tell the computer which program you use for your blog. And it will take the same interface as the blog you have on, as for me www.blogger.com.
Super cool! It just makes me smile. I’m still trying to find out how everything works… but I think I’ll like this program very much.
Also I want to write again. A story. But I don’t really know what about.
I’ve got some ideas. But none concrete. And will I write in English or Dutch. Difficult.
I’ll go think about it while doing something completely stupid.
Playing Cradle of Persia. I can honestly say that it’s addictive.
Hear from me soon. Or see. Whatev.
Cheers from Nederland, behind my desk.
Saskia
OMG!!!
"It's never too soon It's never too late"
As my graduation present.... I'm going to NEW YORK!! YESSSSSSS
"I know you can feel me rising and I'm on fire"
Love the song Quicksand. Youtube it! or something.
Here are the lyrics. I've been bored all night... so here they are.
I like to say
I made good use of my time
While you've been away
And it’s true
I’ve been in my piano every day
Thinking of you
They talk around
I hear them whisper
It’s the funniest thing really
They think you’re gone forever
I know the truth
It’s just getting hard to believe it
And they all tell me it’s over
Even the stars are in line
And I…
I follow the signs so clearly
Yet/And still I’m falling
The quicksand is pulling me down
I follow the signs so clearly
Yet/And still they catch me
The quicksand is pulling me down
I’m not the same
I can’t sleep nights
And now I’m calling your name when I do
And yet without you
They say I get on better, better, better
When they all tell me it’s over
I’ll damn the gods until the stars are in line
I follow the signs so clearly
Yet/And still I’m falling
The quicksand is pulling me down
I follow the signs so clearly
Yet/And still they catch me
The quicksand is pulling me down
Look at my life and look at my face
Can’t you see my heart bleeding down (my… sleeve or honestly?)
So you’re holding my hand and holding my heart
But I just want to feel your breath aside me
So I can breathe
Somewhere in the distance
I catch a spark, a grace, a hope
Something that makes me feel like
I am alive
It’s never too soon
It’s never too late
So I start screaming out
I see your face
I see your hand reaching down
And I yell to you
And I say
I follow the signs so clearly
Yet/And still I’m falling
The quicksand is pulling me down
I follow the signs so clearly
Yet/And still they caught me
The quicksand is pulling me down
I follow the signs so clearly
Yet/And still I’m falling
The quicksand is pulling me down
I know you can feel me rising
And I’m on fire
If they keep on pulling me out
Look at my life and look at my face
And look where I’ve come
To get to this place with you
Be here to sit and lay at your feet
And resting your arms
And listen to your heartbeat
Oh Oh Oh Oh
Oh OH OH OH
Cheers!
Itunes if giving me a hard time.
Any help is greatly thanked! Want to download Quicksand, new song by Everly.
AARGH!!
Just because. And no, I'm not a loser. lol
I go to a school where you can be ANYTHING but yourself. Thankfully this will be my final year.
YAY. Then, after change will come. I will have my new pasport and an appartment on the way. Hopefully I will have my driverslicense by then.
When school is finished. I will spend my summerbreak abroad. I have no idea how I will afford it, but I'll get to that later. lol
Now enjoy the last two weeks of summerbreak before senior year starts.
Maybe go see Lore. I hope so. Let me know. Hint. Hint.
I just want my 'after high school' life to start!!
So... my day so far was actually quite good.
This afternoon I went 'shopping' with my mom. What we actually did was go to the MAC store. That's a make up store. From the brand MAC. duh!
And there she made an appointment for the both of us to get some make up advice from the professional make up artist. SO cool!
I'm really curious, because I wear glasses and they say that with glasses (especially mine... lol) you need to let your make up 'speak' more than usual.
I bought a birthday gift for my brother, 21 to be. lol
Already lost 8 kilos. Because of my awesome diet. Still, 6 to go. LOL
When that's gone we're going shopping big time. Also I will go to the sweetest (and totally gay) hairdresser. My moms dear friend who will do my hair... because of the losing weight.
And I have curls, natural. But for some reason when my hair grows... the curls kinda disappear. So I will have 'permanent' groove curls. Looking forward to seeing that.
Finally I can tell Lore that my laptop hasn't crashed. That was only to stop her from asking all the time: How are my stories?
Like I said in my letter, You will be surprised. And I hope you were.
I also like that you've liked my stories. Thanks for that.
TTYL. DLTBBB (Don't let the bed bugs bite... only shorter and faster lol)
Suddenly I really get emotional when I hear the song 'Heal the World' by Michael Jackson.
Which is weird because I didn't care about the man....
Listen to my words: Lore, you will be surprised!
Not much going on. Took an early break from high school. Useless to go there to watch movies. Went to see The Proposal. It was hilarious. Addicted to; Robin Thicke - Everything I can't have. Dying to be 18. I will have my new passport. And a new lastname. I can go to the USA. Don't know what I will do there. YET. Lost 4 kg. YAY. due to this awesome diet. 8 kg to go. Painted my fingernails atleast 3 times tonight. Bored. Already wrote a whole blog before this one. It was awesome. And. My internet crashed. Hating my internet. Not forever. Like I said. Not much going on.
Oh em gee!
My mother just came up with the greatest idea ever!
My 'dream' for the future is to go and spend some time abroad. USA.
And now she's telling me: Or you could go to finishing school (I have no idea what that is).
Or you could go and stay with your uncle and aunt for 3 months and in some kind of payment... watch your nieces while they go to work. And when they're back home you'll have free time!
Oh em gee. I can't wait. I actually just can't. (: (: (:
Mostly I am tired.
At the start of the evening I was planning on blogging.
And now it is like almost nine AND I forgot what I wanted to blog about.
Did a lot today. And since it is like a gazzilion degrees outside... a little soon had gone too much.
I did make a lot of funny text Icons. For personal use onely.
Not much to say. Not in the mood.
Off to watch Inkheart. Hope I'll find it good.
Talk to you later. Off.
A few weeks ago our Idols in the Netherlands was won by Lisa.
She has this amazing voice and her first single is a cover of Hallelujah. She sings it with so much passion. Unbelievable.
But ANYWAY.... it's been a while.
I don't really know what to write because my life (from my point of view) pretty much sucks right now.
It all has to do with 'the' ex boyfriend, me being pretty much friendless, not having a sociallife and of course school.
First subject: the ex boyfriend.
2 weeks ago he came over for a visit. And it didn't feel comfortable, it sucked!
I can't really explain it because I thought it would feel kind of good to see him again.
But it turned out that it didn't. He wrote me this long email telling me that he missed me as a person and that he missed my family as for being his family. Bla Bla.
So he came over but I just couldn't do it. He came to close again and I don't want that anymore.
And now I'm on the MSN, talking to him. Trying to tell him that I still want to stay in contact.
And he tells me that he misses me so much and that it's only getting worse. He also told me that he still is deeply in love with me.
BUT I just can't. And I know that I made the right decision two months ago. But still, it sucks.
Second subject: friendless.
It's true. I'm almost eightteen years old and I have no social life other than school.
My once best friends kind of dumped me at the time of my boyfriend. But that's totally my own fault. Because I ignored her pretty much completely at that time Because I had my boyfriend.
And now she has a new friend and I'm jealous. They kind of have what we used to have. And I want it back, I miss my best friend. And although we're still friends and visit each other... it doesn't feel the same anymore. And that sucks too!
But other than her and my schoollife I pretty much have no one.
I have this one really good friend, Michel. But he doesn't exactly live around the corner.
So seeing him every once in a while is gonna be hard.
And than there's this other person. An amazing girl. Whom I've been kind of 'stalking' lately.
Lore, you are one of my greatest friends. And I'm sorry for 'stalking' you.
I know it's not good. Because you actually do have a life, which I'm jealous of. But I just miss talking to you, miss our goofy stories.
Third subject: school.
A few months ago I took on Math. I dropped that class a few years before, but suddenly I thought it would come in handy. So now I have Math. And it sucks. I just can't sleep about it.
And although my teacher says I'm pretty good at it, as does my tutor... I just don't know.
It's actually that I think I'll fail my exams because of math.
Secondly, Biology is going really bad. I don't know why, but the last few subjects have just gone bad. My grades have dropped to a big fat D/E! I hate that feeling.
I just need help with everything. I'm pretty much/kind of depressed at the moment.
And I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like crap pretty much all the time.
Once again, Lore. I'm sorry. I hope you'll still talk to me.
And now I'm off the bed, listening to Broken Hearted Girl - Beyonce.
Went to Creta. Came back. LOL
It was very nice. The weather was nice, never had any rain. The people were nice.
Except for one person, but that doesn't really matter.
I had the 'hots' for the travel agency guy *blush*.
Went to see Knossos with the family. My mom took a lot of pictures for my paper for school.
Which I'm not looking forward to.
Then we had a Greek night at the hotel. My sister-in-law and I + dad danced the sirtaki.
And again I had the hots for a guy. He was one of the sirtaki dancers... and he actually winked at me! LOL
I can't explain, because normally I don't fall for that kind of guy... but he was cute! lol
Next we went back to Holland, a boy who sat a chair next to me in the plane kept staring at me.
It annoyed me, lol. I was like, wtf?!
In the plane I read an interview with Robert Pattinson. Found out why he's single. lol
Got back home, started my computer. Downloaded my missed series and started watching.
Just finished the first one, One Tree Hill!
Well, a lot of staring. Lots of laughter and lots of pictures (not many include me lol)
Wrote my friend Lore a postcard. I hope she gets it through mail.
Now back to duty. Laundry!
Lore, I will beta your stories. Don't worry!
Oke, so I thought I'd write down my opinion about the Twilight Saga.
Book 1: Twilight
I began reading Twilight after I'd seen the movie. Maybe that was a good thing to do. Because now I appreciate the writings even more. I didn't think much of the movie, other than Robert Pattinson looked fine!
But I started reading anyway. Probably because My home base forum buddies were talking about it a lot. So of course, I followed.
Anywayz... It soon came to me in the 2nd or 3rd chapter that I was reading a really good book.
Of course I'd already seen the movie... so I already knew a lot. But by reading the book, I realized how much they 'forgot' to film.
In the end of book 1 I couldn't wait to go to the store and buy the rest. I sort of already knew that I would like them all!
So, the next day... I went to the bookstore and bought book 2, 3 and 4.
Book 2: New Moon
Book 2 begins where Bella tells the readers that they jumped 6 months ahead. And then, suddenly after her birthday 'party' Edward disappears. First I thought about stopping. It wasn't Twilight anymore without him. But, curious as I was I continued reading.
I find New Moon a very good book. You really get to know Bella and her relationship with Jacob.
He had a small part in the first book, but you don't realize how big his role is untill you've read New Moon.
A lot of people say: New Moon is boring because Edward isn't in there for the most part. That's true. But if you skip that part. And read the story of Bella and Jacob, I'm telling you. The only thing you do is laugh, cry, laugh. Their story is funny and sad. Because Bella doesn't really answer the love Jacob has for her.
In the end of course Edward returns. Which is also a good part. But still... Sometimes I wonder how Bella's life would have gone if she said yes to Jacob, if she said yes to his love.
Book 3: Eclipse
This book I actually thought was a bit weird. I mean, suddenly the stories of Jacob, Bella and Edward were mixed. In some way good, in some way confusing.
I won't tell to much because I know my friend Lore still needs to read the rest... But because I really liked New Moon. I really got butterflies in my stomach at the part before the big fight... The moment between Jacob and Bella. Even though I love the couple Edward and Bella, I was still thinking what if....
Book 4: Breaking Dawn
Actually I'm not quite finished with this book. I have two chapters to go till the end - ): -
I'm absolutely in love with this book. The writing, the stories... the adding of one cute character.
It makes me curious about how they are going to put this book on the big screen.
At least, I'm happy things worked out between Jacob, Bella and Edward. Atleast Jacob and Edward don't call out names like : leech and wolf! They are just Edward and Jacob now. Peace at last...
Well, I can't really say yet actually. I haven't finished yet!
But I'm afraid to start reading again... because I don't want to say my goodbyes..
Edit: Lore, I wrote a big part of the story I will dedicate to you. But again... if you know me, I'm struck by writers block. Thank god there is no deadline!
